10:25 pm next day: amazing high cotton reunion brunch, Kickball playoffs injury/win later, several beers drank. number deleted. you seriously dont have the respect to even respond? Fuck you, Dustin.
8:40 am next day: from him, "hey, was in GA. where you housesitting?"
sigh. what ensues is a plan to get together the next evening. me thinking its a bad idea then saying screw it, and allowing myself to admit (only to myself) that im so excited i can hardly stand it. at 9:15 pm i start getting ridiculously tense bc i haven't heard from him. blah blah, he suggests a raincheck. i say sure, then change my mind and say, "this is silly. no need for a raincheck, lets just let it be." i am disappointed for a moment, then extremely grateful that deep down i know i'm happy with who i am and where i am going....and dont really want him with me. nope.
nope. nope. nope. farewell.
PS. today is day 30. i mean, odddviously it was not 30 days of amazing committment but hey. i did stick to not looking at the fb page, does that count for some credit? anyway, i'll take half the time any day.
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