So many things I want to say.

I'm mad that I can't let go. Or that I haven't yet. It feels like a choice and there's a part of me that is choosing to stay stuck. This embarrasses me. (But why do that? Why not love yourself as you are instead? Love yourself no matter your emotions.).

I'm sure I will get over it soon enough. And I will look back and be amazed how things can change.

I wonder if this has been hard for him. I wonder if part of him loves me. I don't know what difference that makes. We humans. Wanting to be loved. Wanting to feel "enough."

What an amazing situation. Eight years of my life given to my business and now it finally changes. Dream coming true. I've sold my business. To someone I half fell in love with.  I learned a lot I guess.

I learned mixing business with pleasure can be really, really painful.
I learned sometimes things really do work out the way you want.
I learned that if you ask for what you want, people may give it to you.
I learned that my heart is hungry for love.
I am jealous.  Lonely. That I will settle for crumbs. For a while at least.
I have so many supportive, wonderful people in my life.
I still need yoga.
You never know how you will respond in a certain situation.
Life can surprise you all the time.
Keep hanging on. Even if by a thread. Eventually it will end.
I have a tendency to look forward to the future and it dampens my present moment joy.
I want a man. A partner. I want to stop looking. And I hate the mating games. I hate that I'm looking. That I'm looking around seeing which man might be the one to make me happy. That I know you "should" find all the love you need inside and yet I look anyway.