YES YES YES

I'm good!  she fixed me.  multiple new techniques, time, love, magic, whatever.
im good.

we were always meant to be casual, no strings attached, easy, fun.  short-term.  somewhere in there, and for whatever reason, we both thought it might be something else.  it just so happened that he realized/remembered that was NOT true and he let it go.  took me a little while longer. (two miserable months longer, despite my best efforts.)  but today i am thrilled to just let let it be what it was.  short-term, easy, wonderful.  it was never meant to be anything but that.

sweet jesus i feel free.  and i will stay this way.  im claiming it. :)